the only time
i'm drunk.and right now i'm so in love with you.and i don't want to think too much about what we should or shouldn't
do.lay my hands on Heaven and the sun and the moon and the stars.while the devil wants to fuck me in the back of his
car.nothing quite like the feel of something new
maybe i'm all messed up.maybe i'm all messed up in you
this is the only time i really feel alive.this is the only time i really feel alive
i swear.i just found everything i need.the sweat in your eyes the blood in your veins are listening to me.well i want to
drink it up and swim in it until i drown.my moral standing is lying down.
nothing quite like the feel of something new
maybe i'm all messed up.maybe i'm all messed up in you
this is the only time i really feel alive.this is the only time i really feel alive
i can't help thinking Christ never had it like this
The person in pretty hate machine still obsessing over a girl has now begun to see his whole situation as futile. He
begins to see everything in a different light than before. This is probably alcohol induced and begins to try too hard to
get this girl's attention which is all he can hope for at this point. He has exhausted all other methods and now
understands the pointlessness but has come to far too stop.
-zach
getting drunk and messing around as a way of forgetting it all. "maybe it's not the right thing to do ("maybe i'm all
messed up"), but at least it gives me some small measure of peace of mind ("but this is the only time i really feel alive"). i
want to forget everything, morality and justice and truth and purity. i just want to drown it all, at least for right
now."
-alexa
This may actually be Trent's first "love song", as compared to The Perfect Drug, which has also been
interpreted as a "love song". The Only Time refers to his new relationship ("nothing quite like the feel
of something new"), whether it be a "love" relationship or a "sex" relationship ("while the devil wants to fuck
me in the back of his car"). He is completely caught up in the relationship--possibly his whole existence
revolves around this person ("well, I want to drink it up and swim in it until I drown"). This is what he was
searching for in his life and he feels that he has it better than Jesus Christ.
-crystal
This man has always been the perfect man, being good, being everything everyone wants to be, a real pillar of the
community, a great student, a wonderful athlete, a successful business man, taking over dear ol' dads family business just
like the parents wanted him to. he dated in high school, the lead cheerleader no doubt, but there was never any sex, he
was the good little boy, and all his dates were the good little girls. One day he met this woman, a seductive woman, a
slutty woman. She drew him in with sex, hot easy sex. She draws him into her world with that sex, a darker world,
without morals and righteousness, there is only drugs, drink, and sex. As he becomes more and more infatuated with her,
he begins to drop to her level, her world. She plays him like a puppeteer with a marionette, sucks away his soul, his
money, his life, until he is but a husk of who he once was, until he is nothing without her. She is a Black Widow of a
woman, sucking away at her mate, and making him think he loves it. His friends and family begin to disdain him, he is
lost to them in the dark alleys where he and his whore find a place to screw. He knows in the back of his mind that it is
wrong, he knows that she is killing him, he knows he is losing himself, he knows that hell is the only thing waiting for
him when he dies. But he is in too deep, he can't resist, even in his moment of clarity and enlightenment, she just has to
wrap her legs around his waist and he is hers again, she won't let him regain himself, he is all hers now, and she will keep
him like a pet until he doesn't have anything more to give her. Then she will drop him for the next poor victim. he
drowns in her darkness, he loses himself, so distorted by her, so messed up inside her, he gives up trying to think for
himself, and over time begins to believe that he thinks what she tells him, she told him that Christ, and all the goodness,
never had it as good as he does, and he believes her without question.
-Xenocide
