terrible lie

hey God, why are you doing this to me?am i not living up to what i'm supposed to be?why am i seething with this animosity?hey God, i think you owe me a great big apology
terrible lie
hey God, i really don't know what you mean.seems like salvation comes only in our dreams.i feel my hatred grow all the more extreme.hey God, can this world really be as sad as it seems
terrible lie
don't take it away from me.i need someone to hold on to.don't take it away from me.i need someone to hold on to
hey God, there's nothing left for me to hide.i lost my ignorance, security and pride.i'm all alone in a world you must despise.hey God, i believed that promises, your promises and lies
terrible lie
you made me throw it all away.my morals left to decay.how many you betray.you've taken everything
terrible lie
my head is filled with disease.my skin is begging you please.i'm on my hands and knees.i want so much to believe.i need someone to hold on to.i need someone
i need someone.i need someone to hold on to.i give you everything.my sweet everything
hey God, i really don't know who i am.in this world of piss*

*written but not sung

This seems to be lament of the loss of faith. The man in question wants fervently to believe in a higher benevolent power but he has been let down yet again by this so-called loving God. He hates to cling to this belief but without it he will truly have been stripped of everything and will be an empty shell. In everyone there is a desire to believe in a higher being but at what cost Once the delusion is seen for what it is all that is left is more pain and confusion a continuing search for answers.
-serena

losing faith and not liking it one iota. feeling that all the things God or the world promises to give you aren't coming. feeling that everything you ever bought into was a lie and the realization leaves you alone with nothing but your own hatred. begging and pleading for something to believe in, some way to forget that the lies are lies.
-alexa

Questions from a man tormented with the realization that "God" is not really the loving caring being he believed in. It is an angry expression of hatred directed at "God" questioning the hatred and injustices in the world "hey God can this world really be as sad as it seems." Because the teachings he believed in were destroyed he feels betrayed and torn apart "you made me throw it all away/my morals left to decay/how many you betray/you've taken everything." This is a final plea to "God" that he needs to believe in something and he is "on my hands and knees" and will do anything not to have to give up what he believed in.
-crystal