hurt
i hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
i focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but i remember everything
what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt
i wear my crown of shit
on my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
i cannot repair
beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
i am still right here
what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt
if i could start again
a million miles away
i would keep myself
i would find a way
looking back on his life and how meaningless it all was. everyone left him and hurt him, so he in turn makes promises but does nothing but leave and
hurt them too. even if he could give them anything, it would be nothing but an "empire of dirt". he thinks of his life, of the power he craved and how it
got him nothing but the throne of a liar and a crown of shit. in the end he has nothing but himself, and that's not enough because he hates himself. the
memories of the life he led and came to detest fade away, but not the loneliness and the empty despair. he wishes he had it all to do again. he's
sure if he had another chance he wouldn't ruin everything and let the world ruin him, but i doubt that he could. it's not that he's particularly weak.
it's not that he lacks strength. it's that he can see nothing but the pain of the world and the do-or-die struggles for power. he's not some unfortunate or
some whiner, he just can't see beyond the pain.
-alexa
This is a summary of the whole album. what went wrong, the solution, and
what it has resulted in. "i hurt myself today" explaining the suicide
that occured in the downward spiral. "the needle tears a hole, the old
familiar sting" relating the gunshot to a painless needle-sting. almost
as if he was being put to sleep/euthinized. letting his fears consume
him, not worrying about what it may result in... "everyone i know, goes
away in the end" i'm gonna die anyway, so why bother living the rest of
my life in pain, then just simply ending it now? "and you could have it
all, my empire of dirt" explain how he is leave the rest of the people
that cared about him with all of his pain and the pain of him being
gone. "if i could start again, a million miles away. I would keep
myself. I would find a way."expalin how he still does not believe in a
higher power or entering another world after you die. this is told by
the MOST important word in the whole album.... IF.
-ryan
Possibly the portrayal of the reflections of a drug addict. He has changed into something which his mind cannot handle
("what have I become my sweetest friend"). He feels remorse because he has lost himself (and his friends) and wishes he
could return to what he was ("if I could start again a million miles away i would keep myself i would find a way").
-crystal
I think it's about realizing that he just does not care anymore and he so corrupt now, that he can not change. All that's
left for him and the people around him is pain and suffering. The most important lines to this song are the last four,
because if he could start again anywhere but here he would not make the same mistakes. He would be pure and
true, do something that matter. So IF , if meaning it's to late for this LIFE and he can not turn this around. But in
another life he would find a way to be the opposite of what he is now.
-marie
I never really thought about the song as being about suicide before. I've only had the album for a couple of days, but
when I saw the video a couple of years ago, I initially thought the song was about despair. It also seems to be about
revenge when Trent sings "I will let you down/I will make you hurt". It seems he, the character, is trying to get back at
all the people who either tried to put him down like his girlfriend, or, to go to the other extreme, those who tried to
believe in the good in him like his friends and family. There is both a will to live and a will to die.
-mike m
